I got a little shy and self conscious. I didn’t get to be my best self out of all my selves today. … thanks for hanging out with me and being here for me when I falter. Life is full of challenges and tough information but I’m smart, hardworking and caring enough to handle it all. I will figure it out!
I’m strong every day but I’m not perfect. I love when I chat with my homies and online lovers. Sometimes, I get cranky, hard, quiet and more. I know I share my humanity a little more than most when this is supposed to be your comforting escape. I have challenges regulating my emotions so somehow I talk out loud here. It helps me to release what’s on my mind and my feelings sometimes. I’m sorry for when misunderstandings, mistakes and any clashes happen. I get put in a lot of situations that aren’t good for me, haven’t given myself time to recharge, some more boring stuff and I should always being do what’s best for me. I want the chance to live and be my most authentic self without any voices trying to convince me of anything else. It’s really nice to have people I can be safe around, talk out loud to and rely on and be there for me during the tough moments. Recharging and sending out the bat signal on as many platforms as I can. Will likely go live on appledaily002 or Princess.Garfield. To put on make up then I’ll be live again. I’m currently restricted/muted/censored as Cindy Moon and Mai Hero. 🤣😆😅
@maihero
Today’s shower episode. 🫣 on sale. 😇
Part of the sale is cuz someone named Latin Carribbean queen linkbombed my stream (AGAIN.) even tho I blocked her the other several times she’s done it to me. STOP IT ALREADY. ITS NOT OKAY.
If she is following you, you may want to block her or blacklist her or she will do it to you while you’re live or to your creators if you’re a promo page selling ad space. I blocked her the last couple times she did it and she’s still able to get my posts and go into my streams. It’s something OnlyFans needs to fix on their platform cuz this shouldn’t be allowed. I didn’t have as big of a meltdown this time but I did namecall. You’re a grown woman or man running a business. Be annoying and self promote on your own page or on insta and TikTok like the rest of us instead of being a tacky witch and interrupting my show/page/episode as if I’m not a person worth considering. It would be different if you were nice, we’re friends and you asked but you don’t. You don’t deserve my friendship, respect or kindness when you blatantly disrespect me so publicly.
On sale. 😇 Today’s episode 1! Rick and Morty shirt with lots of fun dancing in Black Calvin Klein set! Then the pretty blue top and in preparation for shower episode. ☺️ 🇺🇸 🌹 😇 💦
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Pic of socks we were able to match today. 😍
I spilled the rest of my heart out to my girlfriend instead of the internet and she validated my feelings. We enjoyed each other’s tea and she helped me with my mountains of laundry. I settled down and mentioned positives of Chad and admitted to my faults and challenges as well. I am getting ready to stream and just say hello to everyone.
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#cindymoon #writing #marvel
Writing:
Black cat: You can come to me whenever you want to vent or spill your tea.
Silk: Thank you.
Venus: Same. We love you. Lovers come and go but friends are forever!
I read my own stuff all the time and trust me, I don’t love being like this or in this position either. 😅
It’s going to hit him hard when I move on and I hope he’s ready to lose me. He must be. Otherwise he would have helped where it matters by now. I only have everything to gain by dropping him and I look forward to easier, brighter, happier sex filled days.
I went off a lot today so I will probably live stream at some point to kinda make up for it. Love you. 😇😅
I’m home now and will try to edit more photos and keep calm and care-free reading my own messages. Thankful I’m in a safe place. I know we’re all having meltdowns over little and big things we’re not talking about, too. 🇮🇱🇵🇸
🇲🇲🇹🇭🇧🇩
If you’re not smart enough to listen to me or help me where I need it, don’t be surprised when you see someone better than you do exactly what I need with me when you had the chance for 4 years. If other girls can make 50k a month with 1 assistant then I should be able to make a fifth of that. Or at least half of that without you stressing me with a limp dick and your own inadequacies.
Me on onlyfans: 🤬😱😭💙🥺💦💛😏✍️💋🤬🤓💛🥶💋📝😜💛😇💐💦😍😎💋📝 😇💙🥰☺️💐😄💛💦😍😇✍️💙😚😜✨💙🤬🥰😇📝😝💛💋💦😍
Everyone else: 😍🥰♥️🍆😳❓❓❓🌹😍😭❓🥴😒♥️🤬🤔🫡🌹🍆🤯😭🍆♥️🤣 ( wow, none of this affects me but I am curious, invested, and I care. let’s see what the tea is now.)
Thanks for hanging out with me during my growing moments. Doing some writing and cleaning my room and then I’ll dive into my messages again to say nice things or leave voice notes on @cindymoon7 or @maihero.
Writing:
Different Spectrum podcast: Hello, wonderful people! I will be the soft guidance counselor for you today at the… *looks at clipboard* Possibly co-dependent, possibly bpd, possible anger issues, possible lost boy, possible dumbass, possible trauma, just a human, possible______, possible attachment issues support group. 🤣
Please feel free to introduce yourself with your name and if you’re comfortable what’s been going on. If you just want to say your name and hang out and listen, that’s okay. We are all here to support one another and there’s no pressure to share if you’re not ready. This is just a small part of the Anonymous Besties Cult. We are happy that you are here. We only bring love, support and soft guidance if needed.
OPTION A
Cindy Moon: Hi, my name is Cindy Moon. Some people find me attractive, funny, goddess like, silly, loving, good and positive. I’m thankful and grateful for the blessings and people in my life and I am always striving to do more where it matters and show love when and where I can. I always want to do more. I want to fill the world with friendship, love, good people, joy and peace. I am on the spectrum and super adhd. I have communication and socializing challenges to overcome and have been essentially isolating myself for my safety and mental health. I am now open to having more than 2 friends and expanding my very small world.
OPTION B:
Cindy Moon: Hi, my name is Cindy Moon. I fell in love with a man who is scared of me and can’t get a boner. We do not communicate well. He’s addicted to porn and can only possibly get a boner when he watches hard core material of other women. I’m also technically a sex worker.
( Because I have an onlyfans. Which I think is whatever because everyone has an onlyfans. )
#onlyfans #psychiatrists #therapists #psychologists #mentalhealthadvocates #guidancecounselors #wanted #cindymoon
…You don’t even have a six pack of abs. I’ve got 10 fit dudes with six packs willing to call me Angel or princess and get me breakfast so why should I interact with you and not them.
AND THEY CAN GET THEIR DICK HARD WITH JUST A SELFIE.
Ugh what am I doing right now
If you’re mad that other men can afford to throw $10-$100 at me ‘just cuz’ and you can’t…. I promise resenting me for it while you do nothing but waste my time and energy is not going to end well for you.
It’s not even hard to help me or follow my directions. I accept that I will never get through to you. I need someone smart, who cares, who knows what foreplay is and can get their dick hard without relying on porn.
I don’t want you anymore.
I only have everything to gain by dropping your pathetic, deadweight, lazy, worthless self.
I want and deserve ASSISTANTS or MISTER SLAVES to help me stay relaxed and care-free so I can produce better content. I don’t WANT a man. I don’t NEED a man. I want PEACE, SAFETY, SANITY, STABILITY, PROSPERITY, PROTECTION, EVERYTHING POSITIVE WE CAN THINK OF.
I DESERVE IT ALL.
I want to follow my dreams and take care of me, my friends and the world that I’m in. If you have no intentions of seeing me for how I WANT TO BE SEEN AND HEARD, then you get nothing and you can try to go back to your exes who left you for the same reasons.
I told Chad you need to help out where it matters or I have to go to other people. He still doesn’t care so if you’re reading this, Chad.. I told you my needs for 4 years. You can’t be surprised that I left you like your ex wife did. 4 years.
There are girls making 3 million a year with 1 assistant and they’re 21 years old. Meanwhile, you’re driving me nuts doing nothing and wasting the sexiest years of my life. Go be a fucking loser and waste someone else’s time and energy. I need a good person, not an idiot doing everything he can to mooch off of me and lowering my value every day. It’s fucking ridiculous that I don’t have enough b/g content available while girls my age are sleeping with a team of lovers and making 50 times what I do and living carefree.
4 years. Instead of helping me make 1 million dollars a year, you’re making me live in hell to make less than what I did before I met you. ITS BEEN 4 YEARS ALREADY I CANT DO THIS WITH YOU ANYMORE. WHY CANT YOU JUST GET WITH THE PROGRAM AND HELP OUT ALREADY INSTEAD OF STREZZING ME OUT TRYING TO CONVINCE ME IM LAZY WHEN YOURE NOT DOING ANYTHING HELPFUL.
I’m looking for co-stars. It’s okay if I don’t find anyone I’m compatible with either.
My wild angel sent me $200 and told me to “dont stress.” So I’m feeling better.
I just really needed to get my head out of this space for a bit. I definitely wasted too much time and energy on the wrong people.
Someone was mad at me cuz I don’t operate the same way as other creators and they were waiting on a custom I was positive I had sent on Snapchat and it was wearing me down. (If I don’t want people keeping nudes of me then that should be respected. Same with not wanting my content to exist outside of this social media platform) Not him asking for it, but the way he was asking. I looked back in messages and played a clip where I said hey and his name in it along with a clip I only made for him and remember sending only to him.
So I did send it to him and thought I didn’t because he was getting aggressive. So he yelled at me instead of asking nicely for more content to achieve what? 😭 don’t freak me out and then wonder why I don’t wanna talk to u. 🏃🏻♀️✨✨✨ 😭
Tbh I’m jealous of creators who have partners or assistants screening their messages of bad people and blocking them for them. Sometimes, I’m slow cuz I see a racist, demanding or dehumanizing comment and then I gotta take a long self care break. Lol. I’m okay, just need a walk to try and forget some things. I’ll be back at messages in an hour. Xoxo.
It’s weird to have a job where I’m letting people see too much for free already and then they call me the bad guy. Even though it’s clear that it’s them because they’re being entitled and toxic because they weren’t raised well. It puts me in a terrible position and I shouldn’t be worried or concerned at all. He was also mad that I wouldn’t share for share him. I don’t think my followers want to see a man here. The last time I did a ad for a man I lost several hundred followers. Please just get away from me. 😭
Someone who named themselves BIG DADDY was complaining that $1 a second is charging too much… I can’t even make this up. 😭
Then they lied that they spent a bunch of money on me so I sent them a screenshot of their profile that says they spent $0. Every creator on onlyfans is shown this information when you message us… why would you even lie about this? 😵💫
I’m taking a break and going for a walk, lol.
This is why creators have an attitude, if you ever get the mean booty end of a creator in a message, just know it’s likely not your fault but someone else messing with them.
If anyone wants to be degraded, humiliated or more im in the mood to try it today. Send me a tribute and write something to get us started. I could spend time with him but I think I’d rather give my energy to my fans instead. I don’t want to waste any more of my lifetime on someone who makes my life harder than it needs to be.
You have me all fucked up writing essays to strangers on the internet cuz I’m so stuck and desperate to be seen. One day it’s going to be a sentence to you, one word answers and then one day just no answers to your texts, calls or messages.
Thanks for being here for me. 🌹
I’ll edit and put some content up for sale today. As always, VIP medal holders and patrons, send a rose to request bonus content, content to be unlocked, a voice note or for a little attention. 🫣
I’m saying all the things out loud in my head I need to detach. Im not asking for a lot and he just doesn’t care or want this enough. That’s out of my control and i will open my mind and heart for people that will add value instead of burdens and unnecessary strezz into my life. I need a best friend, not a worst enemy. I look forward to stronger and more rewarding connections. I am not crazy for wanting my needs met.