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2023-10-09 19:41:51 +0000 UTC View Post
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I told him again I love him less and less every day. I don..
I told him again I love him less and less every day. I don’t know what else to do except give it to him plainly and honestly. Or I guess to keep saying it until it happens and I’m free of this mental cage I have with him. He says he loves me but he won’t help me with any of the marketing, captions, photo taking, phot editing, social media or important things. It’s like I’m pulling teeth to try to get him to understand me and he hasn’t even helped enough. I feel so frozen, trapped, angry, regretful, confused, _____ and distracted. I feel like an idiot. I shouldn’t be getting upset over someone who doesn’t even comment on my Instagram or follow me. How did we get this far? Did I just think this is better than being alone? Is it just so rare for me to be attracted to someone that I don’t want to let go? Am I doing this because it felt worse to carry all of this by myself and is he doing less than nothing because he resents me for having a job that looks like im doing nothing? I am working in my head 24/7. If I was Britney Spears, wanting 7 fan pages to help manage millions of fans from each continent and instead of telling me yea, I can help manage one you tell me I should be able to do it by myself then how can you expect anything other than rage, frustration and meltdowns? Get with the program so I can relax and be me. I wish I could share more. Maybe one day. He won’t sell solo content and gets angry at me when I tell him he should. He accuses me of trying to make him gay and I don’t even have the energy to deal with that fighting. His mother was a hardcore catholic and his dad is a deadbeat so I wonder if that had any impact to how he is. I told him can you please just sell a shirtless selfie so I dont feel so obviously used and like he’s mooching off my image while taking my followers and the money I need to save orphans, refugees and make sure I’m gonna be okay? He just gets rigid with insecurity even though he’s 6’6, built, smart and whatever just because I asked him to start selling shirtless pics and find some sugar mommas so I can stop sweating worrying about my rent AND his. (Which shouldn’t even be my responsibility.) I told him he can sell to women cuz women buy content, too. Especially older women and he goes into a fit as if he’s scared of gay men or struggling with his own sexuality or something. I don’t care. Get off my dick and get out of my way. Give me our content that we can sell at the same time or don’t be surprised when I co-star with someone willing to give me the content right after we make it and is willing to buy their own ads. Pouring love into him hasn’t worked and I shouldn’t have to be in a position where I have to resort to being mean and strict when I am kind and soft at my core. I wish he had guy friends, brothers or a father figure because he’s not a feminist There’s nothing I can do or say that would ever get him to listen to me or see me in the light I deserve. Part of me thinks he loves me but the fear of being broke and “used” by a seggs worker overrides it. Even though I’ve done more than enough for him. He is just as attached and confused as me I think, but with fear and resentment of me because I’m a seggs worker. He thinks my job is easy even though I’m clearly falling apart and can’t produce anything fantastic right now. I don’t even want to look at myself. Why wouldn’t you be happy for my success if my goal is to make so much money I could retire your mom or buy a house, maybe even be lucky enough to have kidz who don’t have to worry about college tuition if I could get that far? I don’t know he expects from me anymore when he’s the source of my misery and gets in the way of everything I’ve been trying to do instead of helping me get to where I need. He keeps asking me to stop talking shit about him on the internet but he won’t do anything to alleviate the pressure or workload. Not even 15 minutes of helping me clear up my Instagram or helping me match outfits. I’m Managing over 6 social media accounts by myself, 15-18 hours a day and he still acts like I’m doing nothing all day. It’s enraging to the point where I feel like I can’t focus on my VIPs and I’m… Frozen. He’s still not helping with anything important so there’s nothing left to do except to drift apart. I can’t keep carrying everything by myself. I don’t know why he keeps acting like it doesn’t make sense that I should answer messages while he helps with dishes and that I can’t do both at the same time. He won’t even help me post memes while I edit photos, which sounds like a great job to me but he makes it sound like hell. I deserve someone who adds value to my life and helps me gets stuff done. There’s no point in wasting my time tying to logic this with someone who’s intent on villainizing me for asking for help. I’m sorry to my followers for all the drama, pain, negativity and tea I’ve brought here. I needed to talk out loud about what’s been going on to people who can see outside of me and actually care about me. I haven’t been able to rely on him or myself to do more. I’ve gotten kinda asexual and traumatized at this point from my messages. I hope to be inspired again soon by someone who’s going to do and be more for me. I’ll be answering messages to nice people instead of spending time with him today. He doesn’t care. I don’t care.
2023-10-09 19:01:42 +0000 UTC View PostI’m glad we’re broken up. There’s plenty of people who would..
I’m glad we’re broken up. There’s plenty of people who would co-star with me and then give me the content right after we make it. I don’t owe you anything. Not a week head start on selling content you rely on my image for, nothing. Especially when we’re fighting every day because I keep telling you my needs and you keep ignoring them. There are plenty of people that would love to bring me peace and support. I want to feel like I should get out of bed or want to brush my hair. I don’t get that with you. This is MY MONEY and I’m not arguing with someone who hasn’t given me a Christmas in 4 years.
2023-10-09 18:41:56 +0000 UTC View Post
Someone sent me $100 and I forgot about him again.
Someone sent me $100 and I forgot about him again.
2023-10-09 05:14:50 +0000 UTC View PostYou can love someone and respect someone’s desires/boundarie..
You can love someone and respect someone’s desires/boundaries of not getting pegged. It’s just tough for business. I asked if he could model the leash one of my angels gifted to me for a photoshoot like I did. He wasn’t up for it. I can’t make him want that and I don’t want to push. I’m working on a range of photo sets between dominant and submissive. The stuff yesterday was really good and I’ll make available for medal holders.
2023-10-09 04:54:14 +0000 UTC View PostWhatever, I need to go edit photos.
Whatever, I need to go edit photos.
2023-10-09 04:27:45 +0000 UTC View PostIf you can’t see how amazing of an opportunity it would be t..
If you can’t see how amazing of an opportunity it would be to serve ME as ur GODDESS, then you don’t deserve time with me. 🤷🏻♀️ If you don’t have what it takes to help me earn MY MONEY, then you can’t be upset when I end up having to talk to people who CAN, WANT to and WILL.
2023-10-09 04:13:49 +0000 UTC View PostI hope you fall in love one day and that she does to you wha..
I hope you fall in love one day and that she does to you what you did to me.
2023-10-09 04:01:37 +0000 UTC View PostHe’d rather lose me than help me, so be it.
He’d rather lose me than help me, so be it.
2023-10-09 03:41:35 +0000 UTC View PostI’m single. If he wanted me he would have listened to me or ..
I’m single. If he wanted me he would have listened to me or made more effort. Remember that I used to love you. One day, im going to make it and you’re gonna wish you took pictures of me or told me I was beautiful.
2023-10-09 03:25:58 +0000 UTC View PostI kept telling him if things don’t change that he’s going to..
I kept telling him if things don’t change that he’s going to lose me. That I love him less and less every day. That I need someone who brings me peace, love and joy. There’s never any real effort to provide that for me. I let him know for the 3rd time this weekend that we don’t have to see each other or talk to each other anymore after some more stupid comments he made. We made a little bit of b/g content and I’m okay shutting him out of my life after this. Everyone knows I’m miserable. He knows he’s making me miserable and I give up. He’s making me do everything by myself. I need people who actually want me to succeed and are happy to help even if they don’t gain anything from it. I don’t want to be on guard, distrezzed, or write essays anymore on the internet. It’s on me to leave him so I can be the best version of me for my followers and most importantly me. I’ve given him more than enough time, energy and resources. He’s never cared enough, still doesn’t care enough to relieve some of the pressure and workload on me after 4 years and I just don’t care anymore. 4 years, no birthday presents, no anniversaries, no Christmas celebration or gifts…. Just turning me into a person I don’t even recognize anymore. You want to act like I’m the menace then enjoy being alone. I deserve more than what you pour into my life every day.
2023-10-09 03:08:03 +0000 UTC View PostWhat are some of your favorite places to visit? And why
What are some of your favorite places to visit? And why
2023-10-09 00:17:02 +0000 UTC View PostCatching up on sleep, enjoying new views and taking it easy...
Catching up on sleep, enjoying new views and taking it easy. 💙
2023-10-08 16:52:56 +0000 UTC View PostHe looked at me with his smug Canadian face… “talking shit..
He looked at me with his smug Canadian face… “talking shit about me again, eh?”
2023-10-08 07:07:07 +0000 UTC View PostI could just write sensual captions here or I could save try..
I could just write sensual captions here or I could save try to lives instead Maybe both
2023-10-08 05:09:34 +0000 UTC View PostDo I have any trustworthy and caring subs in Bangladesh near..
Do I have any trustworthy and caring subs in Bangladesh near Cox’s Bazar? Goddess is willing to let you serve if you are. I have plenty of tasks, quests and missions for you if you are in Southeast Asia. Feel free to let a friend know. If you’re rich/fortunate enough to complete my tasks without living there that’s acceptable, too.
2023-10-08 04:56:08 +0000 UTC View PostSomeone sent me 69$ and I forgot about him.
Someone sent me 69$ and I forgot about him.
2023-10-08 00:44:06 +0000 UTC View PostPosted some schitty screen shot of me in a maid outfit on IG..
Posted some schitty screen shot of me in a maid outfit on IG and it got more likes than my poems, my memes, my eccentric stuff, my food AND the pictures of Gang Gang. (The rescue dog) 🤣🙄🤦🏻♀️🤣 I’m currently restricted from captioning or commenting. Thanks for any and all boosts. 😇🌐🌎💙🌹 I don’t believe any numbers on social media anymore, they’re all delayed, different and/or fudged for all of us. Lol. I’ve learned so many things from my accounts. (Which I made for research purposes, obviously.) #cindymoon #research #onlyfans #socialmedia #conspiracytheory @maihero
2023-10-07 19:29:47 +0000 UTC View PostI see your bulge… Is that for me?
I see your bulge… Is that for me?
2023-10-07 18:05:13 +0000 UTC View PostHey I’m Scarlet but you can call me Miss Rose 🌹 This page is..
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2023-10-07 17:54:52 +0000 UTC View PostToday’s episodes! Stream started at 10/07/2023 04:16 pm U..
Today’s episodes! Stream started at 10/07/2023 04:16 pm Undressing scene and Shower scene! $1 a second. no tips= shorter stream!
2023-10-07 17:41:29 +0000 UTC View PostI keep telling him I’m miserable with him and he’s still not..
I keep telling him I’m miserable with him and he’s still not doing any of the things I need. I don’t know what he’s expecting besides me not loving him anymore. You can’t expect me to want or be with someone who refuses to meeeeet any of my needs. I don’t deserve a life like this. If you loved me you would have helped by now. So enjoy losing me because it’s what you want and deserve.
2023-10-07 16:32:30 +0000 UTC View PostHe knows I love him less and less everyday. He’s still doing..
He knows I love him less and less everyday. He’s still doing the same things. Waking up and immediately vaping every other waking moment, drinking energy drinks and going online and into schitty parts of the internet, all of which makes him grumpy/irritable and difficult to be around/all stuff I have to endure and put up with… a half hour after he wakes up. I can’t live like this. He’s still choosing not to provide any value or help. My needs are NEVER met. Taking a small vacation and after it, I’m okay if he never comes over again. Going live for a Shower episode and packing for my trip. Sorry to the people rooting for him but I’ve given him several years and all I’ve gotten out of it is _______ and a 2 minute b/g video, I can’t do this anymore.
2023-10-07 16:11:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Having one of those moments where I’m somehow chasing and av..
Having one of those moments where I’m somehow chasing and avoiding sleep at the same time.
2023-10-07 10:57:30 +0000 UTC View Post
