I apologized to him for ripping him a new universe and calling him names last night. He apologized to me. He’s gonna fix my door before the category 5 hurricane arrives and make sure my dog and I are safe. He’s been chill. We’ve been apart. He’s gonna clean my kitchen and put up hurricane shutters. He has his own place.
2023-09-11 05:28:56 +0000 UTC View Post
I had a talk with some A team girls and I’m going to phase out real Cindy Moon here and make things a little easier on myself. I need to make A team money. 🤣 There’s a lot of people role playing fantasy characters/ alter egos and I think I’ll take that route and focus on the business. It’s time to take the onlyfans page more seriously, get sets organized and try to keep real me…. Elsewhere? Private archived? Archived? I don’t really have a place to post my screenshots or thoughts. I’m getting “talkative” again. Anyways, half the guys in my DMs are fudging their name and age so I’m not gonna be hard on myself when I make myself anonymous, too. (I know we’re all just talking Schitt online and I truly don’t care if you’re 69 pretending you’re 25 or if your name isn’t really Jon arbuckle.) I’ll be able to give myself a second chance cuz I deserve it as well. I want to be happy and healthy. It would be more easy and fun for me, too. Half of Mai Hero has been private archived and it feels a little strange. Not that I’ve really looked back. I’ve shared a lot of personal thoughts, poems, protests, drama, growing chapters, humor and internet doings on both these accounts. I figured some people would Anne Frank or ask Alice me and post my stream of consciousness and internet doings eventually in a photobook or fan book or something. If I private archive it all, people won’t have any source material but it might be sexier and easier. I kind of wanted to leave the last couple of years up just because if I leave this world and it’s all hidden in my private archive then that doesn’t really help anyone get enough material for their booklets to sell and no one may ever know I even existed or tried to make a difference. I don’t feel that great having freedom loving me/ over 10,000 posts private archived on @maihero. But I also feel relieved cuz I was even nuttier in that life. I want there to be enough material for people to use. Anyways, I’m gonna enjoy a bath and a good meal with Gang Gang. Censor my princess parts if you’re one of the people working on a fan book so they eventually find me here. The more I make the bigger difference I can make for good. Anyways, I made a really good dinner and I just wanted to give everyone a heads up before everything maybe gets a makeover. ♥️🫶🌹☺️ I hope everyone had a wonderful day. Thank you for coming to my bed talk. I may share my girl adventures from today. I know I literally just said I was gonna try and be more shush shush but I didn’t promise it!!!! #cindymoon #blog #newbeginnings
2023-09-11 03:22:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Are you ready to serve mistress?
2023-09-11 02:32:19 +0000 UTC View Post
Awww, my posts don’t have a minimum of 50 likes. I guess no stream tonight. 😋 Hopefully tomorrow! 🌙
2023-09-11 01:59:20 +0000 UTC View PostIf you refuse to listen to me, help me exactly how I keep telling you I need you to and don’t know how to love me then you need to let me go. I know you’ll never read this because you blocked me so I can’t see what you’ve posted and written for your captions in selling our content cuz you’re scared of not having enough money to pay rent… but I still needed to say all of this out loud for me.
2023-09-10 09:22:13 +0000 UTC View Post
New poetry and I guess journal writing #cindymoon #writing #poetry
2023-09-10 09:13:58 +0000 UTC View Post
He didn’t show up. I enjoyed the best meal I cooked all year and then I played with Gang Gang while watching a feel good romantic movie. I brushed my teeth. I’m fine. I can’t afford to care about someone who refuses to take me out on a date or take photos of/with me. This has been insanity. I don’t want it anymore. He’s not worth this pain and anguish. I will never understand why he chose to make my life worse and harder instead of better when it would mean that I could take care of us both more easily. He doesn’t want to be an important part of my life. There’s nothing I can do about that. I don’t want to do this anymore. I blocked him. Now, I go to bed for some well deserved sleep. Good night, world. 🌙💙😴
2023-09-10 06:01:41 +0000 UTC View PostGood night. Maybe we stream tomorrow. 💙🌙
2023-09-10 05:16:58 +0000 UTC View PostPart of me knows I volunteer and protest to cope with what’s going on in real life. Maybe he loves me. Maybe he doesn’t. It’s okay if I don’t matter in his world. I can still make a difference in other people’s world. I matter even if I don’t get to feel that way with him. He comes back and doesn’t leave me alone which feels like some sort of love. I know I scare him. I don’t want to be scary. I hope to get to feel feminine soon. He loves me enough to hang out with me. I don’t know if I can get through to him. I wish I didn’t have to resort to being mean but I don’t want him to perish even if he doesn’t know how to love me or doesn’t love me at all. He’s been willing to fight other people for me and he consistently shows up for me more than any of the other lovers have. Sometimes, I’m harsh and strict. I only do it because I care. I never want to resort to it but being nice just didn’t work. He hasn’t shown up, yet. I’m making dinner and enjoying a quiet night with Gang Gang.
2023-09-10 04:07:07 +0000 UTC View Post
I am deeply aware that the most interesting thing about me rn is my love life. (Tags so I don’t get banned @kinetickraver)
2023-09-10 03:07:06 +0000 UTC View Post
He brings out the best in me. #cindymoon #lovelife #tea #drama #stopsmoking
2023-09-10 02:11:34 +0000 UTC View PostAnd the award for most boring onlyfans goes to… Cindy Moon! Cindy: oh, wow. Thanks, guys. 🥳
2023-09-10 01:33:27 +0000 UTC View Post
Last night he locked me outside knowing I couldn’t find my keys so I had to kick down my front door. Now it matches the door to my bedroom that he kicked down. We’re both stupid. I don’t understand what’s going on or why he can’t just listen to me or help me. He won’t listen to me. I have to move on. I don’t have time for this. If you can’t love me the way I need to be loved then go back to being unloved and alone. I have so many more important things I need to do besides getting constantly enraged. He’s not even giving me D nor does he deserve any love making from me so I don’t know what he’s doing. Going for a walk. Everyone wanted him to be a Prince Charming for me and I dont understand why he would rather be the bad guy in all of this instead of just listening to me and loving me. I never wanted to become this kind of person. There’s so many things that need my time and attention. I can’t do this with you anymore.
2023-09-10 00:37:23 +0000 UTC View Post
I told this bitch I need help so I can have more time, energy and resources to save Myanmar and he was all like, they don’t need your help in Burma you stupid bitch, you have more important things to do than this crazy shit, none of this is good for you and I was like no, I fucking don’t. I need to help Myanmar, iran and Afghanistan and whoever the hell is out there , you’re the stupid bitch, help me help them or get the fuck out of my way And that’s how your father and I made you (Jk, I’m being funny to cope. Maybe he’ll learn to love me one day but it feels like too little too late.) #cindymoon #home #blog
2023-09-10 00:06:33 +0000 UTC View Post
♥️ B/g ♥️ for the new people. What’s a girl gotta do to get some rest? I was taking a nap when my roommate snuck into my bed and started giving me the fucking of my life. I begged and begged him to cum on my tits but he simply refused to pull out. He emptied his balls inside my fertile little pussy and I don’t know what to do! I don’t want all that cum that just flooded my cunt to goto waste but I don’t have any girlfriends who can eat me out either… 🙁💔
2023-09-09 23:42:07 +0000 UTC View Post
Going live as soon as my last 25 posts have a minimum of 50 likes. Spam my page or boost me outside of here to make it happen. 💕
2023-09-09 23:29:54 +0000 UTC View PostMaybe you like when I lose my mind and write essays about you. I don’t believe in love anymore because of you. I never knew that I could become this cold and angry and all these feelings that nobody really wants to read about. One day, I will stop loving you. One day, I will stop losing my mind because of you. One day, you’re going to go back to being alone, getting rejected on dating apps daily and eating McDonald’s every night. If that’s what you want, then that’s what’s going to happen and you’ll have no one to blame but yourself. You’d rather have that than help me with any of the important things I need? We’re almost there.
2023-09-09 23:17:25 +0000 UTC View PostHe wants to keep acting like I’m not worth helping until I eventually find someone who will. It’s not even hard to help me so I don’t know why he’s being the way he is. I was so much more successful before him and I want to get back to there not even for myself but just to spite him. Hate who I am rn. 😭 I need to love myself but that’s not possible if I keep letting him back into my life and he refuses to get with the program. If he doesn’t love me then he needs to stay away. If you choose to be a loser that’s on you. I shouldn’t have to break down and cry for you to help me while I work 16 hours a day.
2023-09-09 22:59:07 +0000 UTC View Post
If my last 20 posts have minimum 50 likes or we hit the summoning goal of $100 I’ll go live immediately.
2023-09-09 22:48:40 +0000 UTC View PostTf am I supposed to do with 6’6 meathead with a dick that doesn’t work and won’t take pictures of me. Get out of my mind and life already. I hate you.
2023-09-09 22:43:56 +0000 UTC View PostI don’t understand why he won’t take any of this seriously but I can’t handle it anymore. I kept asking for my key back last night and he wouldn’t give it to me. Part of me is hopeful and wishes it was because he loves me. Another part of me knows it’s because he doesn’t want to lose his access to free food and keeping me to himself. You can’t keep me to yourself if you refuse to take care of me, love me or listen to me. I fed you almost every day for 3+ years. I didn’t eat a whole day and you didn’t notice or care. After I mentioned it crying, he said you should be able to feed yourself. … Even though I sacrificed my time, money and energy to cooking or going out to feed you when I should be streaming instead. You’re not giving me any choice but to become this monster who hates you. You can’t be here if you’re going to be this worthless and useless. I used to tell you you were handsome and supported everything you tried to do. I let you live here rent free for a long ass fucking time even though you refuse to help out so I eventually had to kick you out even though I never wanted to. You can’t do this to people. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I love you less and less every day. One day, I will stop loving you and you’re going to watch me thrive by myself or do better with someone who can give me 1 hour of help a day without making me scream my head off for 4 hours. I need someone who values me and thinks it would be fun to help me pick out outfits and make sure I stream by 7 or before midnight. I can’t do this anymore. You’d rather resent me than love me. You’d rather argue with me for 4 hours than help me for 15 minutes. I can’t live this like anymore. This is your fault. I feel like an idiot for entertaining it but I’d been a slave to my emotions because love makes you stupid. One day you will wish you did more than make my life worse instead of better. Im sure you’re on your 5th energy drink by now or trolling the internet again like a loser instead of helping me edit photos or promoting me on Reddit like I need. I’m so glad you find doing all that is so much more of a priority than helping me or making content with me. Enjoy your loser activities.
2023-09-09 22:40:14 +0000 UTC View PostI wanna live in Canada so bad for the universal healthcare. 🤣 Maybe I can be successful enough to buy a small cabin or property there. Do any of you guys live somewhere awesome with universal healthcare and more? I find you guys so fascinating. Some of you live in amazing places like Norway and Finland which I heard is fantastic. I find every person who lives in a place different from mine super interesting.
2023-09-09 22:09:48 +0000 UTC View Post
I don’t even have to try, I win wherever I go. 💕
2023-09-09 22:03:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Only the weak and willing have any chance with me. 💋 My greatest strength is owning someone Iike you. 🌹
2023-09-09 21:37:52 +0000 UTC View Post
Love makes fools out of everyone. What’s the most ??? thing you’ve done in the name of love?
2023-09-09 21:03:59 +0000 UTC View PostLooking for romance, romance comedy movies or series to watch. My favorite genre is Comedy and I’ve never been into romance before. I’m not over him, but I’m over it. I want to be and do better and I guess I need some different influences. I want someone who wants to make out with me and tells me I’m pretty.
2023-09-09 20:44:58 +0000 UTC View PostEverybody who thinks I’m funny is going to heaven.
2023-09-09 20:05:46 +0000 UTC View Post
