Today… was an amazing day. ☺️ I was doing Cindy Moon things ..
Added 2022-11-18 07:10:42 +0000 UTCToday… was an amazing day. ☺️ I was doing Cindy Moon things delivering messages when I found out via Radio Free Asia article today some of the good people are getting freedom. I cried in happiness. There’s still more good people who need power like Cambodian American activist Theary Seng but I’m glad to hear Toru kubota, Sean Turnell, Vicky Bowman will be able to get home, touch grass and hold their family and 5000 other people will be freed. It’s still not enough, obvs but *cue tik tok sound* I don’t care what y’all say a win is a win. 🤣 I’ll keep doing what I’m doing. I don’t know how to stop anyways. I posted on several accounts, worked and managed renovations at my house some more. I’m always working. Today was historical for me cuz I ventured out and socialized at a new Games and hobby store. Felt good to disconnect from the voices/internet for a little bit and Worked on my Warhammer miniature. I love my angel. Thursdays are Hobby night. That was so enjoyable and soothing for me. Everyone was so nice at the shop and I watched them play card games and build hobby model miniatures. I tried to not go over 15 hours of screen time today to be nicer to me but I didn’t succeed. There’s just so much going on? and there needs to be more on my end. I wish I had 100 of me. I also had a lot of people reach out to me about Sony, Amazon and MGM coming out with Silk as their first series with Marvel…. To be honest, my heart sank a little. It’s been an unspoken and silly, selfish day dream of mine to be Chosen to play Silk/Cindy Moon. I know reality will hit me when they come out with another actor who I’m sure will do an amazing job. I wish I could play the part. I know I’m bigger than a fictional character someone made up…. But i still I guess have some weird part of me that wants to be character and actor behind Marvel’s Cindy Moon. I don’t want to think about how I’ll feel when they come out with her and I’ll disappear under her in the hashtags. I wish I was big enough or good enough to be noticed but I can’t spend a lifetime chasing dreams when there’s people who need me for bigger things. I know my mind’s being selfish. I’m thankful to be home and doing what I do. I’ll shake it off, soon. Trying not to think about disappearing. I know i don’t have a chance with the adult part that comes with me. As a victim of revenge corn via my ex husband (my lawyer and i are trying to find him to sue him cuz im pressing charges, I was r Kelly’d 🥲.) I know I won’t have a chance against another Asian girl who was blessed enough to have a vanilla background/history/family. I’m trying not to think about it and to humble myself to focus on the social Justice work as well as this modeling job. I gotta get into it harder/take this acting gig more seriously to make enough so that I can maybe have a house and a family one day. I don’t want to do this when I’m 69 (I have to be smart.) idk, the internet doesn’t feel real to me. I forget I have an onlyfans all the time? Idk I didn’t grow up wanting to be an adult model and I feel like I’m just doing the best with what I’ve been given. I deserve maximum goodness. I’m gonna try and focus on that and idk all the other projects I haven’t even touched. I’m probably thinking too much again. Trying to not think about a lifetime of interacting with people trying to see me naked for 3 dollars or less and then always relaying it to me. Hard not to have an attitude here and I appreciate the ones who want me to have high standards and an attitude. I just want to have nothing to process so I can “stfu” 🤣 I know I “talk a lot.” I guess it’s the Deku in me. I’ve barely talked idk today. Anyways, long story short today was a really good day. I am thankful and grateful. I hope everyone had a soft and easy day today. Good night. ♥️🌙🕷🤳✨ #cindymoon #007 #silk #marinataylor Onlyfans.com/Cindymoon7
