… I’m just always going to be in this weird space where peop..

… I’m just always going to be in this weird space where people are going to feel entitled and toxic no matter what I do or how nice I am. 🤷🏻‍♀️ 😅 It’s so weird to live in a world where some people see me as a bad person if I don’t talk to everyone. 👻 🥶 Some of them message me trash things when they see me being happy and not acting as a their massive dream whore. They try to get in my brain that it’s not normal for me to be out of their ideal image of me. I hate the “you never talk to me anymore”s (I read 5 of them today and idk how to respond to the people eager to turn me into the bad guy. I’m already trying to talk to 20+ people a day and even that’s not actually realistic. What am I supposed to do or say?) I hate the “when are u going back to normal” and the “when are you going live again” from people who have been here 1 month to 2 years and have no intentions of even sending over a $1. I get so many of these every day on different platforms and it feels like k have to become colder and set boundaries. It’s not healthy or realistic of everyone watching me to have such easy access and entitlement to me. I’m not sure how to stop it. I guess that’s why I try to not allow a lot of poor quality people or messages in my view. I can’t unsee them. So many voices a day. They desire to take up rent in my brain to get me back to where they get to see as much of me for free or cheap as possible. I don’t want to let just anyone in my ear or eye view. I kinda deserve a lot better. I deserve it all. I felt the need to explain again why I turn off comments or don’t allow every person to talk any more when I go live. I have to stand up for me before my whole life is gone serving people who don’t actually even see me or care about me outside what I can do for them. 🐱 I guess I had to say it out loud cuz it helps clear some of the fog around me. I hope it helps other creators/ models know they’re not alone if they’re feeling the way I feel. Anyways, I read some whiny and pathetic messages aaanand I’m not motivated or turned on. im just gonna clean my room before I have to think about too many bad people. 🤣 I don’t know how you could be taking advantage for 9 months to 2 years of my content and thoughts (remember I used to send Snapchats every day? And some of you were still complaining? Bye 🤣) and have the audacity to come at me weird. If you think I’m the bad guy for not giving you enough attention when I don’t even have enough time to give to myself or my own family, I suggest you take a look at the mirror and realize who the bad guy really is.