I just read ex/ Lover 1’s bio and wall posts and I’m not sur..

I just read ex/ Lover 1’s bio and wall posts and I’m not sure if I should be turned on, entertained, cry, laugh or walk away. A splash of annoyance but that happens sometimes. Idk how you could have been this decently good at writing and not help me 3 years ago. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I didn’t like some words but these are stories and k don’t have any control over someone else’s onlyfans. I don’t like that I’m bitter and stuck in the past sometimes. That’s one of my challenges for myself this May. I’d love to be gentle, firm, sweet, positive, playful and light. I deserve a simple, easy and happy bubble of a life. I had a really good day today and only wish I had more hours in a day to do and enjoy more. I got to watch Star Wars and paint with people today. I was very happy to get out of the bunker for a little. I was feeling a little difficult/feeling challenged earlier and i am winding down comfortably now. Chad cleared out my bedroom. It looks completely different. Grateful for the help. He did a great job. Everything is in living room right now and progress is being made. Yay. Cleaning and clearing new spaces. 🏰 It was another good day. 💙 Dodnt get to send snaps today but I did yesterday a lot. Whatever, I’ll try to let it go. It’s been helpful and better lately as he’s made some more effort in helping. This makes me feel less crazy that he’s willing to try and work off some of how much I’ve spent on him. I don’t want to feel dumb, distracted or like I wasted my time, energy and resources. I spend $40-$50 on food almost every day. It’s not easy to feed a 6’6 man who works out a lot. I wish it was easier to just communicate out loud what I need and just get it done in a timely manner with no need for explanation. I need the dominoes to fall in place and go. I would love to have a life where I don’t need to fight, argue or beg anywhere. I deserve a happy life full of peace, fun and friendships. Maybe a lover or 2 for a moment if I’m lucky during the best years of my life. ♥️💙🌈⭐️💙🌹💫😃 Question for all lovers What do you guys look for in dating profiles? or is it more like a I’ll take what I can get and hope for the best kind of situation? Too busy? Kind eyes? Fit? Similar or compatible interests? Alpha or beta Personality, etc etc How has dating/ poking your head out into the dating world been like? Are you looking for friendships, flings, lovers, idols, partners, super extra serious marriage partners? It’s probably best for me to stay single, maybe pretend marry one day. Curious for research purposes. 😄