I don’t understand why he won’t take any of this seriously b..

I don’t understand why he won’t take any of this seriously but I can’t handle it anymore. I kept asking for my key back last night and he wouldn’t give it to me. Part of me is hopeful and wishes it was because he loves me. Another part of me knows it’s because he doesn’t want to lose his access to free food and keeping me to himself. You can’t keep me to yourself if you refuse to take care of me, love me or listen to me. I fed you almost every day for 3+ years. I didn’t eat a whole day and you didn’t notice or care. After I mentioned it crying, he said you should be able to feed yourself. … Even though I sacrificed my time, money and energy to cooking or going out to feed you when I should be streaming instead. You’re not giving me any choice but to become this monster who hates you. You can’t be here if you’re going to be this worthless and useless. I used to tell you you were handsome and supported everything you tried to do. I let you live here rent free for a long ass fucking time even though you refuse to help out so I eventually had to kick you out even though I never wanted to. You can’t do this to people. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I love you less and less every day. One day, I will stop loving you and you’re going to watch me thrive by myself or do better with someone who can give me 1 hour of help a day without making me scream my head off for 4 hours. I need someone who values me and thinks it would be fun to help me pick out outfits and make sure I stream by 7 or before midnight. I can’t do this anymore. You’d rather resent me than love me. You’d rather argue with me for 4 hours than help me for 15 minutes. I can’t live this like anymore. This is your fault. I feel like an idiot for entertaining it but I’d been a slave to my emotions because love makes you stupid. One day you will wish you did more than make my life worse instead of better. Im sure you’re on your 5th energy drink by now or trolling the internet again like a loser instead of helping me edit photos or promoting me on Reddit like I need. I’m so glad you find doing all that is so much more of a priority than helping me or making content with me. Enjoy your loser activities.