Part of me knows I volunteer and protest to cope with what’s..
Added 2023-09-10 04:07:07 +0000 UTCPart of me knows I volunteer and protest to cope with what’s going on in real life. Maybe he loves me. Maybe he doesn’t. It’s okay if I don’t matter in his world. I can still make a difference in other people’s world. I matter even if I don’t get to feel that way with him. He comes back and doesn’t leave me alone which feels like some sort of love. I know I scare him. I don’t want to be scary. I hope to get to feel feminine soon. He loves me enough to hang out with me. I don’t know if I can get through to him. I wish I didn’t have to resort to being mean but I don’t want him to perish even if he doesn’t know how to love me or doesn’t love me at all. He’s been willing to fight other people for me and he consistently shows up for me more than any of the other lovers have. Sometimes, I’m harsh and strict. I only do it because I care. I never want to resort to it but being nice just didn’t work. He hasn’t shown up, yet. I’m making dinner and enjoying a quiet night with Gang Gang.
